A Book About the Dawn of the Age of the Aquar­ia and the Ques­tion if God Rais­es the Next ‘Del­uge’

what she seems to do every now and then to re­fine the souls of her cre­ation?

[U/D asara b’aw, 2026 in kreuz­berg]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹} ein buch über ei­ne be­geg­nung mit gott und den be­ginn ei­ner neu­en epo­che, die mit der an­kunft ei­ner ers­ten be­wah­re­rin der schöp­fung ein­läu­te­te. ver­öf­fent­licht wird es, dau­ernd ak­tua­li­siert, ge­gen frei­wil­li­ge spen­de auf book.mothers.coop.

© 1911 léon comerre “le déluge” at the musée de beaux arts de nantes

#TODO log over five years (since jan, 2021)

how simon peter and marcus anton­ius felix over the course of more than five years and with the help of hun­dreds of de­mons, a demi­god(?) and mil­lions of our male ‘neigh­bors’ (‘fel­low mem­bers of the hu­man race’) pa­th­e­ti­cal­ly at­temp­ted to sab­o­tage (or even put an end to?) her cre­a­tion, be­cause they were too cow­ard­ly for hell.

it all be­gan more then five years ago, when a long time (gang-)stalk­er/ha­rass­er claimed to have tak­en over my iden­ti­ty (in­clud­ing my voice?) to com­mit felony crimes on my be­half while orga­nizing lots of sup­port, which even­tu­al­ly be­came my guardians of non-en­counter. so i felt it would be bet­ter (not just for me) to start docu­ment­ing their ac­tions. what fol­lowed up was a hazy story about groups of misog­y­nist ‘(nazi)^? ter­ror­ists’, ob­sessed by to­tal­i­tar­i­an­ism and the idea of full con­trol over the in­di­vid­ual, un­fold­ing in­to lots of al­le­gories in many dif­fer­ent con­texts to­geth­er with proofs of god (ap­pear­ing fe­male in my case), ‘abused’ (di­vine?) ins­tru­ments (not just) to tor­ture peo­ple, and a (road) trip with a bril­liant and ex­alt­ed cre­atress of all be­ing, to end up as a de­scrip­tion of my (not just secular) sur­round­ings as per­cept­ed by an or­di­nary (fal­li­ble) mor­tal.

[sat, feb^22nd, 2025 in the evening at mo­tel one: plaza de es­paña in madrid]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹} der weg scheint über die an­ti­po­de zu führen: ei­ner der initial­tä­ter ver­such­te, ei­nem acht­jäh­ri­gen weib­li­chen op­fer zu er­klä­ren, er hät­te gott ge­tö­tet.
[anm.^pers.] zu al­len zei­ten ha­ben die ka­put­tes­ten und grau­sams­ten so­zio­pa­then, ty­ran­nen und hen­ker den un­ters­ten doch ei­nes ge­las­sen: die hoff­nung auf ei­nen ge­rech­ten gott.

O Moth­er, So There Art Thou!

isaiah 66:13

כְּאִ֕ישׁ אֲשֶׁ֥ר אִמֹּ֖ו תְּנַחֲמֶ֑נּוּ כֵּ֤ן אָֽנֹכִי֙ אֲנַ֣חֶמְכֶ֔ם

(en.: ‘as a moth­er com­forts her child, so will i com­fort you, ..’)

[apr^17th, 2026 in tem­pel­hof] surprisingly. and mile­ages may have had varied a lot as ex­pec­ta­tions play an extraordinary role, like de­scribed in psalm 123:2 (and my fellow ‘gentlemen’ may please read the next two psalms ei­ther).

#TODO revision

we en­coun­tered in june 2025. she stayed for near­ly a week. some­thing that re­quires not only a great deal of time but al­so ex­ten­sive prepa­ra­tion.¹ a soli­tary man might find it eas­i­er to achieve such in­tro­spec­tion and leisure, since he can sim­ply quit jobs when he’s free of oblig­a­tions with only loose social ties and no (ur­gent) need for world­ly com­mu­ni­ca­tions. since then she showed me a lot of things and teach­es me a bet­ter way to hear and see. 🕊

1. af­ter hate and cru­el­ty of these cow­ard­ly and in­hu­man groups of (ul­tra-)nazi ter­ror­ists² made a god in­evitable (turn­ing those men in­to a beau­ti­ful al­le­go­ry of a de­gen­er­at­ed pa­tri­archy lat­er on).

2. yhwh/god left my head between jun 9th and 11th, 2025, at the up­per west hotel in berlin, stayed for more or less a week and came to visit me around june 18th in agadir, morroco (reverted in time).

3. [השם] she re­fer­red to her­self as (not to be spoken out loud) íːvə³ (in IPA):

   exodus 20 (שְׁמוֹת):6

   לֹא תִשָּׂא אֶת-שֵׁם-יְהוָה אֱלֹהֶיךָ, לַשָּׁוְא

   (en.: ‘thou shalt not take the name of yhwh thy god in vain’)

   often re­ferred here to as יי (or ASCII “) for a lot more rea­sons than try­ing to avoid ridicu­lous gen­der dis­cus­sions.

4. a height of between one meter to 1.20 meter? her face i could not see and i cannot imagine someone being bold enough or having the courage to paint­ it. the rel­e­vant part from ex­o­dus 33:20 might bet­ter be ‘trans­lat­ed’ as «.. how do you in­tend to live, are you cer­tain of me?», imho. con­vinc­ing me in lieu, most el­e­gant and un­ob­tru­sive, that she is ex­alt­ed above all

5. when yhwh/god she seemed to look­ to­wards the hori­zon from an up­per floor of a hotel, es­ti­mat­ing un­count­able pa­ra­me­ters over the com­ing thou­sands of years, i received a ‘passt’ in ger­man by , mean­ing ‘suits’ or ‘fits’ and that she does­n’t think that i have to worry either.

6. i sus­pect that mo­ses sim­ply mis­heard the name of yhwh/god, under stress, hunger, fa­tigue, and that she proves her beau­ti­ful cre­ation by the fal­li­bil­i­ty of her chil­dren:

   exodus 3:14

   וַיֹּ֤אמֶר אֱלֹהִים֙ אֶל־מֹשֶׁ֔ה אֶֽהְיֶ֖ה אֲשֶׁ֣ר אֶֽהְיֶ֑ה וַיֹּ֗אמֶר כֹּ֤ה תֹאמַר֙ לִבְנֵ֣י

   יִשְׂרָאֵ֔ל אֶֽהְיֶ֖ה שְׁלָחַ֥נִי אֲלֵיכֶֽם׃

   mean­ing:

   and god said to mo­se, «ehyeh-asher-ehyeh, ..»

   [note: bible trans­lation is «i am that i am»]

   con­tin­u­ing, «thus shall you say to the is­raelites, ehyeh sent me to you.»

   i re­ceived a very similiar ‘i am who you think i am’ too, but the next: the name of god seems to sound like ‘i am’ in heb­rew (or ancient egyptian?) and מֹשֶׁה/mo­se (a heb­rew speak­er?) might have simply missed her (not to be spoken out loud) name: ehyeh ⇨ íːvə (in IPA, or yahweh).

   so, by the same time, he not just prov­ed the ex­is­tence of god so au­then­tic fal­li­ble, but the תָּנָ״ךְ (tanakh!?) as be­ing true in this regard.

   [amend of apr, 2026] was yhwh/god proving her own existence and that of her creation over the fallibility of her children? me, being an agnostic for 47 years, i didn’t really know the bible (only for iconographic purposes while studying history of art).

   [amend of jun, 2026] i think she might be d’accord with us saying her name out loud as long as long we confess and its sound is em­bed­ded in dig­ni­ty.

7. the name of god means ‘love’/‘pas­sion’.

   exodus 34:14

   כִּ֛י לֹ֥א תִֽשְׁתַּחֲוֶ֖ה לְאֵ֣ל אַחֵ֑ר כִּ֤י יְהוָה֙ קַנָּ֣א שְׁמֹ֔ו אֵ֥ל קַנָּ֖א הֽוּא׃

   is trans­lated into modern eng­lish bibles with ‘for you shall not wor­ship any other god, for the LORD [amend: it is writ­ten «yhwh»!], whose name is jeal­ous, is a jeal­ous god’?
   or: whose name means «zeal», is a zeal­ous god.
   هوى (ara­bic h.w.y) roots here, where هوايا (arabic hawaya) de­rives from?⁴
   mean­ing ‘love’, ‘af­fec­tion’, ‘pas­sion’ and/or ‘de­sire’.

by all means: my ideal of an al­mighty cre­ator/cre­atress (by co­in­ci­dence)^😂, i just never was able to imag­ine.

the advent of an ebony goddess

[mon, feb^2nd, 2026 at 8⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. (paris time)]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹} mika(i)l wur­de ge­bo­ren.

#TODO TBC

SAPERE AUDE! or lose it by wasting away.

[tisha b’aw, 2026 in leipzig]

#TODO TBC

what if god were a man?

[jul, 2026 in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹} a blood-gurg­ling so­cio­path (e.g., thor), a se­ri­al-rap­ist pe­do-sad­ist (e.g., zeus), a fat­so se­nile soc­ra­tes-look­alike à la mi­chel­an­ge­lo? just how ‘ac­tive’ are they in their cre­at­ing?

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a next ‘de­luge’?

[aug, 2026 in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹} steht ei­ne art neu­er ‚flut’ be­vor?

#TODO TBC/STC

1. my way of prepa­ra­tion to en­counter yhwh/god:

[from aug^15th, 2020, mün­chen] celiba­cy,
[feb^22nd, 2025, madrid] un­der­stand­ing the in­evitability for an almighty god,
[east­er, apr^20th, 2025, praha] the cel­e­bra­tion of yēšūaʿ’s res­ur­rec­tion,
[east­er mon, apr^21st, 2025, ber­lin] break­ing the fast with yeshua,
[white sun, apr^27th, 2025, paris] pu­rifi­ca­tion (on a white sun­day),
[apr^28th, 2025, paris] a wit­nessed ‘kind of con­cep­tion’ and
[may^15th, 2025, ber­lin] a (com­plete?) pu­rifi­ca­tion.

2. misog­y­nist, an­ti­se­mit­ic, oc­cult/es­o­teric (sa­tan­ic?) group(s)of killers and/or rapists (coerc­ing in gen­er­al) as well as (ul­tra)nazi ter­ror­ists from the shad­ows with­out indi­ca­tion of phys­i­cal exis­tence, thus, un­til proven oher­wise, no liv­ing, feel­ing/think­ing enti­ties.but in gen­er­al: such a pro­nounced pa­tri­archy is­n’t good for any­one, imo, also not for men either (ex­cept may­be a very few?).

3. the name of god, imho (or, not to be spoken out loud: IEVE in german), but she kin­da fools me around a bit, pun­ning over ver­sions of the name: her name for ‘I [..?] EVE’. the (pre-bib­li­cal) let­ter equiv­a­lents of the name by go­ing back from the he­brew al­pha­bet via the phoeni­cian to the pro­to-sinaitic (or caananite) let­ters:

re­mark­able are the two dif­fer­ent signs for the later let­ter ep­silon, fad­ing away very early even with­in the egypt­ian hi­ero­glyphs? but some­how i think™ it mat­ters for the name of god: «the preacher» and «the wor­shiper» look sim­i­lar but do have a very dif­fer­ent mean­ing, imho. and so i think, this early in­scrip­tion builds a beau­ti­ful al­le­go­ry made of «hand» (for all we do?), «preach­er», «birds»/«poultry» (or dove for her providence?) & «war­shiper» to de­scribe the name of yhwh/god as an­oth­er word for «pas­sion/love».
[note: by writ­ing the 2nd E in her name in ital­ic, i try to take the two dif­fer­ent mean­ings of the pre-ep­silon let­ter into con­sid­er­a­tion.]

4. knohl, i. (2019). YHWH: the orig­i­nal ara­bic mean­ing of the name. thetorah.com